The Beauty of Loss
Once again I’m asked to let go of everything,
Like Job writhing in his ashes,
I am surrounded with the loss and the suffering
As all that I thought I knew slips away from my
fingertips,
Slowly bleeding into a vapor, a mist,
A shadow of nothingness,
And formlessness and void
I tremble,
I weep,
I wonder, How many times will You ask me to give
it all?
How many worlds will be destroyed by the
continual movement
of Our dancing?
How many times will We be made new?
And why is this the pattern We have chosen?
Why must one world seem to end for another to
begin?
And what can I learn from this time of darkness
and suffering and loss?
And I let it go and give it all…
And there when nothing is around me,
I find there’s only You in the ashes of the
worlds,
In the center of it all, Our United Heartbeat,
And I realize that’s all I ever needed,
For worlds are only for a time,
But Love always remains
And somehow eternity does not mean that all
things go on forever,
So I no longer understand this life that We have
chosen,
And when You tell me what it looks like,
I wonder what You mean,
Or if it’s simply greater than I can fathom at
this time,
But in a way there’s no such thing as loss,
For all there is is Yahweh, and as We give away
all that We’ve known,
We are the only One to whom anything is able to
be given,
So that though the form changes,
And the world is ever altered,
We remain the same
And perhaps the greatest beauty of Our loss
Is, in the depths, to find Ourself as the only
thing,
All that truly can ever be,
Both in what is and what isn’t,
In suffering and glory,
In death and life and increase,
In sorrow and heartache and joy,
We are,
And now I know
I know that We are all that I need,
That You are all that there is,
Tested in the fire that burned the world to ash
My faith is made secure by the flames,
And now I can see greater things and farther than
before
I asked to know only You,
And You obliged,
And I am grateful for this suffering that makes
my heart ache,
And the bitterness of the tears is only equaled
By the sweetness of the knowledge that is only,
only You,
You, my everything,
You, my worldmaker,
You, my heartache, my destruction,
My resurrection and my peace
Truly, You give and You take away,
But I will choose to bless Your Name again,
For I love You.
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