I don’t know how To love by halves and measures, To share myself in parts and pieces, To give you only the parts of myself that you will find acceptable, To hide the things that make me me beyond your reasoned ken, I’ve never been able to keep myself from pouring out into each person The total beautiful ecstasy of being who I am And in like turn, How can I receive only parts of you? How can I take the Love you’re offering me Without the terror that comes with some of the choices you make? Or how could I reject you because I think what you’re doing is “wrong” or “sinful” or “not enough,” Even in my most religious days, I could not in my heart pretend we weren’t One, Though I thought it was possible to hate a part of you while loving another, And yet I never knew how to reject you in part and love you in part, And so I took you as whole whether or not I liked it But oh, I’ve learned through trials and traumas That sometimes I have to pull away an

Hey guys, It’s been a long time, And I just wanted to say I’m sorry for the way I’ve treated you, Sorry I pretended you did not exist Or tried to force you into some acceptable, logical, religious form that could be displayed And understood by others, Or stuffed you down in guilt and shame so that you seemed to disappear, But were really always there hiding in the deepest depths of my being, In the recesses of my memories, In the subconscious decisions and dreams, In the very cells of my body, My bad… I really should have known better, Should have known that you were there to help me, to make me into the whole, Beautiful, well-rounded person that I am, To guide me in my decision-making, To connect me to others, Should have known that I would not be feeling you without a good reason, But society told me that if I displayed you in certain ways, I would be ridiculed and mocked, unsafe in my own expression, And religion told me you were sinful,

My House was to be one of depth and connection of all people of all nations, Of Love without condition given not only from Me to you, But from one to another, But you have made it a den of broken Promises and limited expressions of Love And how dare you purport to represent the God of Unconditional Love While rejecting those who need it most? How dare you pretend to Love someone And then brutalize and betray them when they don’t do what you want? How dare you decide what is and is not acceptable in My Name When you haven’t got My perspective… didn’t even bother to ask? Instead you took the writings, reputations, and even some revelations Of other men’s views of limitation And you made a law of what I never called a law, You made a conformity when I wanted individuality You made a condition and regulation when I wanted unlimited and joyful unique expression of every kind of Love in every kind of way You created division when I wanted unity, Crea